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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Just finish watching Fann wong & Christopher lee's wedding banquet, only one word to describe "WAHHH"!!! I think this is every gals dreams to have such a fabulous wedding...
Money really can do wonders. How i hope i can have this kind of wedding, but i know it's impossible one, maybe i fantasies bah hehe!!! Today went to bugis shopping with my two princess and winnie the pooh (xinxin kor) and all of us got sth for urself, hurray!!! But now all of us are also broke hehe!!!

9:06 PM Y

Monday, September 28, 2009

Times really flies since the last time i blogged, soon my holidaes will be over and another new semester to go through, hope it will be a smooth one though... Alot of things happened the past few weeks but i dun seem to remember all the things that had happened, maybe this might be a good thing becos i could forget all the unhappiness in my life that have happened before, but it is not the case all the times... In fact i got alot of things in my mind to write abt but i jus duno why suddenly my mind went into total blank, cannot figure out wat i goin to write... rather i also cannot figure out about my own feelings now... Everything seems to be blank to me... What is really wrong with me????

7:10 PM Y

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

我成任在爱情里, 我是个白痴 . 有时候也觉得自己做的事情很幼稚, 可是我只不过想跟他玩, 开个玩笑而义但并没有恶劣. 可是因为所有这一切幼稚的行为导致他的误解, 悲伤和伤害, 让我感觉不好和内疚. 但我不怪他因为如果我是他, 我也会有同样的感觉和想法.
可是我已经尽做我所能改变，以更好地. 爱情是需要互相理解和照顾彼此的.
我始终认为，我理解和了解他的性格了很多，但实际上我不. 我一直想成为他的完美女友, 但我知道是不可能的因为这个世界上没有什么是完美的. 但我想要做到最好. 我也以为他是世界上最了解我的人, 但我错了, 我们之间仍然有某些事，我们不会明白因为不是每个人在某些方面都有同样的想法. 我并不需要他多, 只希望他能有时顾立到我的感觉和了解我的心情. 在他身上我领会和学习到很很多东西, 这个世界的现实. 非常感谢他做的一切.
现在，我只能说让我们顺其自然，而让命运做决定.

Label: 我们必须学会如何珍惜你的爱之一，但不能期望过高...
在心里从此永远有个你

9:44 AM Y

Monday, September 14, 2009

I'm sorry I hurt you
I didn't mean to
I'm sorry I hurt you,
I regret it, I do.

True love is a gift
Precious and rare
Which we often take for granted
Bringing forth a despair

Our fault is being human
Mistakes are everywhere
Let's not put our gift
Beyond repair

I'm feeling bad, I regret it
I'm o'erflowing with sorrow
If you can't forgive me today
May I hope for tomorrow?

I'm sorry that I'm not perfect
I'm sorry for the tears that you cried
I'm sorry for the pain I caused

I’m sorry for not being there when I said I would
I’m sorry I made you feel blue
I’m sorry for always doing the wrong thing
I'm sorry that I failed you

But I can't help being me.
I’m sorry...what more can I say
(I'm sorry...what more can I do)
Except I will try harder
Today, and every day
(I really do love you)

9:01 PM Y

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Hai...Times really flies, without noticing 1 wk of my holidae had just passed like that. Life is unpredictable, we wont know what will happen in the next moment of life. It might be sth good or bad we wont know, it all depends on fate. Sometimes God really like to make fun of us.
Like for me, i never thought that he will actually remember me after so long and reappeared in my life ever again. I was kind of surprise that he chat with me online ydae and ask me for a date but i duno whether i should be happy or sad. Happy because he still remember me and sad as its the wrong timing... I try very hard to forget abt him that time and i manage to do it but why must he suddenly reappeared back into my life. My heart is dangling now. But he is now the past to me already so all i can say is that we do have fate to meet each other but not destiny to be tgt...

6:59 PM Y

Friday, September 11, 2009

Enjoy myself todae with my darlings at k suites located at iluma (opp bugis). It's a newly opened k box but it is very different from the k box that i normally went to. The place there is super awesome, it is a high tech k room where they have touch screen planer and internet access, not only that they have rooms for couples with beds inside and if you want to hold a party or gathering there, you can try the biggest room with pool table, internet access, psb station and also bar tender. Cool rite!! They are having a promotion now so quickly go and give it a try...
We enjoy urself and XinXin get to noe a new friend there which is a staff there hehe!!! He kept helping us to refill the chips for us.
However i did sth that make me feel bad, and finding myself being very childish too... I always like guys which are mature in their mindset and behaviour, but i myself isnt one!! I dun like to be childish but sad to say i being very childish at times which made me dislike myself more. I dun want him to find me childish but the opposite! After this incident, i learn how to act and think maturely so it's sort of a new lesson learned.

12:02 AM Y

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Todae went to vivo city to watch Blood Ties with my dear dear. At the beginning i thought it is a horror ghost movie but it wasnt, infact it was a kind of real life tragic story.

(Movie Plot):
On the seventh night of his death, Shun's spirit returns to possess his little sister, Qing, to exact revenge on those who brutally murdered him and his beloved wife. Set in a supernatural context, this thriller takes us into a web of love, betrayal and vengeance.

It was quite a nice show cos i didnt really watch this kind of shows before and after watching it, i realised how cruel this world could be... Actually human beings are much more scarier than the spirtual ones! Guys are the most horrible creature in this world. How i wish i could be a guy so that i wont be in the losing end. Sad to say Girls are always the victim to tragic!!!

Can't wait for the arrival of monday cos i goin to watch my fav movie Final Destination!!! Waited for so long finally can get to watch it. Hope that it will not disappoint me... There is also quite a few nice movies coming up too, hope that i could get to catch those movies soon...

10:44 PM Y

Having Insomia now, so i decided to blog...Finally exams are over, everyone are happy abt it but i don't, rather down maybe becos i am worried abt forwarding my modules. Not in the mood to do anything now... But i will still try to have fun! Btw there is no attrachment for me this semester, actually i'm quite looking forward to it cos its a new experience but at the same time i also feel abit sian too... 1 month of holiday, haven plan wat to do maybe rot at hm or find a job etc...

1:23 AM Y

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

is not healthy to rely on bf too much..

but is normal as i gone tru it.

but always remember one day u fall if he nt there,always know we girls always there for you...mentally support and love you.needed me just call out for me and i will always be around the corner for you.

tmr last day of exam le.when is over don worry and leave it to fate and tell urself watever it is u had done ur very best.

is good to cry to let out ur sadness..

what is bad is u r sad and u cant cry no matter how u tried and all grieve inside is killin u much more.thats is what is happen to me now.

but as i know i must be more postive to attract more postive things around me.
is kind of science and universal law,i believe u know too..u study science my dear..soo ya hold on for now.after exam we go relieve some tension and stress go KKK okay?

tak gd care and see you real soon..

with lots of love,
yuki.

Labels: life is about the art of letting go.

9:02 PM Y

Thks my dear xin xin to blog for me!!!
Todae I loss control of my emotion again, break down all of a sudden maybe becos the pressure i given myself and the stress i am facing not only in school work but more... Feeling damn lousy about myself thinking why i cant do well in anything. Feel that i live for the sick of nothing and i felt totally lost. It is sufferocating me to the extend till i felt breathless at times... thought i would have just die like that without anyone knowing...
My school exam is killing me, maybe this is the main cause resulting me in all this, didnt did well for my this time round exam, so scared that i forward my module..But i can only blame myself for that. However, i will ensure myself that i will not be so last minute anymore... Despite all this, i wan to take this opportunity to tell him that i really grateful for all his patient in teaching me and being a very understanding bf. When i needed him, he is alway there by my side supporting me even though he might be hurtful at times which really hurt me. But i know he meant well for me. Infact i become very reliable on him now that i really duno want to do w/o him around, but this made me more fearful...i though of giving out many times cos i hated myself for being like this...
BUT after that cry, i know i cant carry on with my life like this instead i need to bring myself up back to my normal self, alway happy and cheerful and i know i can do it becos i live for myself and my loves one

7:47 PM Y

Life is unfair, sometimes the misery we can't bear..
This was a feeling I could never share...
I am strong, strong enough to move on from this pain,
I won't feel the shame, my life is not a game, tierd of these tears and my fears...
I will cherish my inspirations...
I will find my dream, I promise, that's what I will achieve..
I will find a way to leave.. I'm not who you will deceive..
I believe in miracles, these people laugh like it's hysterical...
I won't fall, I may be lost but I will be found...
One day I will find the perfect life, life will run beautifully,
I will fly like a butterfly through the night, will have a pleasant sight, a
fraid but I will fight...
No boundaries, free my mind of all the pressure, leaving here will be my pleasure..
I want so much to be free, so much I want to see...
I want to reach the sky, I want so bad too fly...
See, I use to be a fool when I let you treat me cruel...
I made a mistake but I wont let my self brake..
Leave me, for gods sake...
So now I kneel down to pray, for these times of struggle I will just say,
I'll leave in your hands.
God, I will let go..

4:44 PM Y

pretty nothing much to do so come mess xian blog haha..

i knw my darlin xian don mind de right?

today finally saw my long lost xian xian..

finally could see her precious face.

haha.

is been long time since we hang out together esp with sherral her n me..

xian is good to see u doin great..

exam stress is goin be over soon jia you wor..

ur great friends like me and sherral will mentally support u de..

haha..

after exam we shall go do somethin u love that is KKK!!!

haha..

hope to see u soon okay..

tak very gd care...wish u all the best for exam..don over stress and tired urself.

love ya n misses..

Labels: always lol to mak life happy.

12:53 AM Y