♥My memories♥.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Leona Lewis Yesterday with lyrics
i just cant believe your gone
still waitin for mornin to come
when i see if the sun will rise,
in the way that your by my side
well we got so much in store
tell me what is it im reaching for
when were through building memories ill hold yesterday in my heartin my heart
they can take tomorrow and the plans we made
they can take the music that we never play
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
they can take the future that we'll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
you always choose to stay
i should be thankful for everyday
heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
i never believed untill now
i know i'll see you again im sure
[Yesterday lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
no its not selfish to ask for more
one more night one more day one more smile on your face
but they cant take yesterday
they can take tomorrow and the plans we made
they can take the music that we never play
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
they can take the future that we'll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
i thought our days would last foreverbut it wasnt our destiny
cause in my mind we had so much time, but i was so wrong
no i can believe that
i can still find the strengh in the moments we made
im lookin back on yesterday

9:16 PM Y

Sunday, October 25, 2009

In life the saddest thing is to lose ur love ones, but worse if u lose ur love ones with regrets!!! That's why we always say we have to cherish our love ones when they are alive and not wait till the day they are gone. But sad to say, not all people understand till the day they lose it cos humans always take things for granted. Same goes to r/s, u will not feel the pain and the importance till the day u lost it. Even eventually u will lost the person but at least u have spent all the precious moments with him/her before.

10:39 AM Y

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Its better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all!!! This phrase really inspire me when i watch the movie "the leap years". I feel that we must have courage to pursue our own love and not to say sorry!!! But unfortunately i am not, maybe becos i do not have the confident in myself and the courage to pursue. But i will just leave it all to fate no matter what lies in the future i will still need to go with life.

8:12 PM Y

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Today is a special day to me, Yup its my bdae and i'm 19 now goin nearer to the digit 2 already sad:( I am glad to celebrate with my poly classmate esp my lao gong (tasmin) hehe!!! We head down to bugis which is a damn last min plan and get to watch a movie surrogates at iluma, quite a cool show i can say. Beside i get a shirt for myself which i am finding and tasmin got a bag for herself happy happy!!! Btw thks my lao gong for the present and jian wei for the movie ticket. But sadly my bro not free:( My mum also cooked my fav dishes and brought my fav cake for me which later they goin to sing bdae song for me hehe!!! Hope everyone will have a wonderful day!!!

6:58 PM Y

Monday, October 19, 2009

Today is the first day of sem 2, going to school soon. Hope for this sem i will not be lazy like the previous sem, i want to do better for this sem instead!! Wish the best for me...
Since today, everything will changed i will not be like last time so ignorant and childish anymore.
I will not get myself to do stupid things like last time and i will be more independent instead. Life is full of interesting things, so now i am going to explore myself!!!

7:54 AM Y

Friday, October 16, 2009

曲名：永远永远歌手：李翊君专辑：风云电视剧主题曲全纪录
一直以为自己可以很坚强
原来和你一样害怕着孤单
没有你的夜晚星星和我一样彷徨
挂在天上不眠又不安
不知不觉朝来的天已变亮
原来新的时间越来越长
没有你的夜下只有冷风陪我冷凉
我怕我的思念由不过这片海洋
别对我说永远永远永远世态昂贵的誓言
我握不住也看不见最后随着浪涛消失不见
别对我说永远永远永远不是我要的明天
你爱过我就已足够就算到了最后爱已搁浅
只求你留我在你心田
不知不觉朝来的天已变亮原来新的时间越来越长
没有你的夜下只有冷风陪我冷凉我怕我的思念由不过这片海洋
别对我说永远永远永远世态昂贵的誓言我握不住也看不见最后随着浪涛消失不见
别对我说永远永远永远不是我要的明天你爱过我就已足够就算到了最后爱已搁浅
只求你留我在你心田
别对我说永远永远别对我说永远永远别对我说永远永远
别对我说永远永远永远世态昂贵的誓言我握不住也看不见最后随着浪涛消失不见
别对我说永远永远永远不是我要的明天你爱过我就已足够就算到了最后爱已搁浅只求你留我在你心田你爱过我就已足够就算到了最后爱已搁浅只求你留我在你心田

8:30 PM Y

I duno wat is wrong with me, i am always not in a rite mood in everything, to everyone... I feel like i being lousy at times, cannot control over my mood, i hate this feeling!!! I have been lack of confident in myself and been living in my emo world again... I feel the emptiness in me!!! I feel like going somewhere far where nobody know me so i can live in my own world where i dun have to stress over everything including r/s matters... Nevertheless, i will still have to go back to reality of this world and face all the cruelty in me......

7:40 PM Y

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

FEELINGS
What do you do when your feelings are mixed up inside you
You try to be happy but inside your always blue
At times you'd like to cry but theres people all about
So you hold it back and try not to pout
You try not to think of the bad times you had
And try to be happy but inside your always sad
You know exactly what you really want to say
But you can never get it out to this very day
It runs about in your head both day and night
And it doesn't go away no matter how hard you fight
People ask "How are you" you say "good" what a lie
If they only knew you would really rather cry
No matter what you do it is always on your mind
And all the people around you are so happy and kind
You try everything but nothing seems to work
All that pain because of one little hurt
No one understands what your going thru now
You want to live a happy life but you don't know how.

6:39 PM Y

Friday, October 9, 2009

('¨`v´'¨)
'•.¸.•'
*:·. We'Ll
.·* Be
.·:* MiLeS
*:·. ApArT
.·* I'Ll
*:·. KeEp
.·* YoU
.·:* DeEp
*:·. InSiDe
.·. YoUr
(`·.¸ AlWaYs
`·.¸) In
)´ My
('¨`v´'¨)HeArT
'•.¸.•'

12:52 PM Y

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Sometimes I ponder about what will come next
Where will my life turn when it seems to stall?
When is the next time I will smile again?
and how will I get up, should I fall?
Happiness fills me with a touch of sadness.
By that I mean I know it can't last.
Beauty decays, laughter subsides
When will the stones be cast?
Tragedy can be measured by the amount of happiness taken away
Elusion is our only protection
As we fall victim to its prey
So when I've reached a fork in life's road and the choices are many or few.
I follow the one that leads away from misfortune
Thats all I can really do
When life is good
You have to hold it in your hand
You have to close your eyes
You have to breathe it in!
Happiness may end
While tragedy begins
Today is the beginning
Is tomorrow the end?

11:18 PM Y

Todae went to the cathay to watch 500days of summer wit xinxin but its really not my type of movie cos i dun really like love story movies! The story line is abit confusing, maybe next time can catch a better show instead. Hai...holidaes is goin to be over real soon like in a wk times, and the worse is my timetable for the next semster is damn suck! Everyday study frm 8am to 6pm sian no resting time at all. Hai what to do this is life... Feeling like goin to night safari cos they have the halloween event goin on but it is on the fri and sat only, duno who would i be goin with...

7:52 PM Y

Monday, October 5, 2009

True Love poem:
Love is a God’s gift pious,
It does not belong to us,
To unburden us of this holy debt,
Necessary to love other’s in fact.
True love expects nothing,
Only unconditional giving,
It causes distress unlimited,
If one expects love returned.
Love is a divine grace,
True love is like sun rays,
Pouring infinite warmth and pace,
Without any quota and race.
Love knows no enemies,
It is invincible and cures miseries,
As a river flowing infinitely,
Riding all the sins and dirt wisely.
It is here to bless saddened mankind only,
Lovelorn life is no life plainly,
But an alliance unholy,
Love rich life is a dream cherished fully.

7:58 PM Y

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

This can really describe how am i feeling now...
I have been supressing all my childish fears for so long and now it's time to let it all go. I thought of what he told me and sort out all my thought, i have to be strong in myself inorder to carry on with life. No matter what is goin to happen in the future, i goin to live my life to the fullest every single day. Even i am goin to lose him eventually, at least i had once enjoy the time i had with him cos life is unpredictable. I will not feel inferior in myself anymore rather be strong in my mindset. I am goin to live independently no matter what happen cos i dun ned anyone there to carry on my life!!! I can live by myself...

Label: Letting go of the past, to see a better future in you... Life is a lesson of give and take!!!

7:31 PM Y

I duno wat is wrong wit me but my heart hurts so much now, i feel like crying... I am not as strong as what he though, why cant he understand my feelings? Everytime i must act that i am very happy but inactual fact i am not but sad... It is so heart breaking whenever i am sad but he is happily talking without noticing at all... It doesn't mean that my love for him start to fade but i can say as in he dun really understand my feeling and what i really want. I know he is very busy at work and dun have much time to meet me, i can understand that even i miss him alot, but now its my holiday so i really wish to meet him more often even just for a little while maybe just for dinner... After my holiday, i will be busy in my school work and he will be busy in his job, so we might not even have the time to meet at all by then... So i would like to take this opportunity to meet him more often but i know it is impossible cos he got his work to do. I dun wan to disturb his life, i dun wan him becos of me to spend more time on me rather than his work cos i promise him to be a understanding gf... Does he know i wanted to spend most of my time with him not all those guys that ask me out. My friends keep asking me why my bf always never acc me? Am i too childish thinking like that, can someone advise me wat should i do???

5:40 PM Y

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Today i had this thought wondering whether to be loved by someone but having to suffer from the fear of being love hurt OR to be single throughout with no fear of being hurt, which is better??? Love can be a sweet and lovely but it can also turn out to be a horrible nightmare!!! That's the reason why i alway felt inferior about having an r/s cos i scared to be hurt... Misunderstanding is always a problem in every r/s cos people all have different opinion. Therefore couples must know how to understand and compromise their opposite partners... Am i asking too much from him or maybe i expected too much from him?? Maybe becos he is too important to me which become part of my life that's why i will be more fearful then anyone to loose him. His every action or words will mean alot to me... i really duno what i can do to make things better.....

4:41 PM Y

Friday, October 2, 2009

ydae i recieved a suprise present from my dear dear, he brought a mp3 player for me which i wanted to buy, i like it alot, thks alot!!! ydae i also suddenly had a thought in my mind to become a air strewdess cause the day before i went to terminal 3 and saw a few air strewdess there, so it reminded me of my dream since i was young to become a air strewdess... i will give it a try, hope that i can get in but most probably can't cos not enough caliber hai.... Beside that i also thought of becoming a paramedic. But then i will still leave it to fate....

10:35 AM Y