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Monday, July 26, 2010

I know i have to be strong but sometime it's not easy. It always a struggle to me to be strong and happy. Nobody will understand the pain in me and how i felt. Now that i realised to change urself to fit into his is so difficult. I really duno when will it happen again becos i have no confident in myself anymore,I have been struggling within myself. I realised that something cannot be force if not you will be living in misery. I duno and i dun want to think about it anymore becos i have no more energy to think about it anymore, i felt drain and exhausted. I just need to learn to let go...

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Monday, July 12, 2010

Hai, i realised that whenever i start blogging it is always nothing good and yes this time there is no exception too, sometime bad happened to me again. But this time it is about friendship. I duno why i just can't seem to find a true friend of mine,ever since secondary my friendship is always an unpleasant experience, betraying, hatred, bastabbing etc... I duno is it something wrong with me that i deserved all this kind of treatment. I thought maybe because during that time we were still young and ignorant and during the tertiary level things will change for the better but i was wrong. For now, i thought i have finally found a true friend of mine but sad to say it doesn't seem to be the case already. I can say human feelings always changes. I duno what i did wrong this time that now she is treating me so cold. Her attitude towards me change dastically even since the start of sem. It been so awkard between us now and i duno what is the reason to it. Towards the other she is not how she treated me. We used to be close friend but now i am not sure about it anymore. She is not the one i used to know before. Things has changed. Once again i felt lonely, i just want a true friend!!!

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