I'm worried for my dear dear cos he recently seem to have dreams every night, which affects his sleep quality which result him in being tired all the time. The reason is most probably due to stress in term of work and because of me. I felt bad and disappointed of myself that i cause so much stress to him. I know it's due to my ignorant, childishness that cause him to feel that way. Sometime i wonder am i such an lousy person/girlfriend or something is wrong with my character and attitude towards love. Every moment from the very start we are tgt, i have been changing myself to suit the one he wants or maybe every guys wanted. I know that i get emotional easily which leads to lots of conflicts and almost even break up, being too stick to him that he had no time for his work, family & friends, i keep talking nonsense and jk ard with him abt i being with other guys and stuff too much that he doesn't like & felt irritated at times. I agree that i am at fault for all this acts which i never notice & knew until he let me realise it. I try so hard to change myself and i did change although sometime i tends to repeat the same mistake agn. But every moment i keep changing myself to be a better gf, i really feel very tired and tough for me. But on the other hand, i know i love him that i am willing to change for him. I am really scared and restless now cos i duno what will be the next problem in me that i have to change or whether i can really change. Sometimes, i really hope just to be myself and dun have to worry abt what is the correct character & behaviour. I always cried abt all this, that sometime i feel numb of my own feeling becos i am always encounting the same old feeling. I really love him alot that i am so scared to lose him. i dunno what to do...

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